#3

Today was ok, at some point.

I was going to do a lot of things, but was hard to even just get out of bed. If it's not for work, I have no reason to do anything. I guess I'm just in autopilot at the moment. Just getting through things.

Playing stuff just to keep myself occupied is the most I can do, and even that I can't enjoy. I try, but I don't understand why. Maybe I'm just too off my face all the time. I thought it would help. At least helps the numbness.

I watched Drive the other day. I've never been a Ryan Gosling fan, but I have to be honest it was pretty decent, especially the soundtrack was on point.

I wish I could understand what's wrong. I just want it to stop. But I got a bad feeling.

I wonder if you ever think about me, even though I know the answer. I'm glad you are over it, cause I can't.

Day 36